Like most Americans, I never really
thought about what I believed or why I believed it. Like the majority of unthinking Christians these days,
the ones who say that Jesus approves of everybody and their sinning lifestyles simply because He loves them (confusing the terms “love” and “approval”), I was, like them,
a Christian on the surface, and was easily led to believe in such things. I, like them, believed morals to be an
exclusively personal thing, and I also followed along with the general theory
of evolution, without giving it much thought, because I thought it was possible
that God could have used evolution to create everything. It certainly sounded logical, but I
didn’t stop to think that there are different kinds and levels of evolution,
and that believing in one kind doesn’t automatically mean that man evolved by
chance in some primordial soup. Natural
selection and minute changes in species is not the same thing as the evolution
they are trying to teach our children in the schools. Back then, though, I believed that science
had already proven beyond any doubt through their examination of the fossil
records and all the scientific facts they had collected in all their various
fields of study that Darwin’s original theory was irrefutable, and that man
evolved from lower forms of life, most recently monkeys, and in the distant
past, a single cell forming in some chemical goo hundreds of millions of years
ago. When people asked the inevitable
question, “What about God?” they were patted on the head by the apparently
placating scientists and teachers and told, “Well, you poor, ignorant,
indoctrinated simpleton, if it will make you feel better and put your mind at
ease, we’ll admit, grudgingly, that a god could exist, and that maybe it
created everything through the process of evolution, because any dummy should
know that our findings are definitive and indisputable.”
Most Christians, myself included,
just sat back and thought, “Okay, that does sound intelligent, and it does
put my mind at ease, as long as I know you aren’t attacking my religion
outright, and you leave an escape clause in your findings that allows for the
existence of God. After all, you are
the smart ones, the brilliant scientists who have studied these pieces to our
past. Your information must be
accurate, because why would you want to give us misinformation and distorted
facts anyway?” And so, the concept of
theistic evolution was born, along with the idea that the creation story in the
bible was exclusively figurative. And I
bought it hook, line, and sinker, without thinking too deeply about it, as most
Christians probably still do today. For
most Americans who practice Christianity, who believe in Jesus, the religion
has become feel good mysticism. Just
watch Oprah sometime, and you’ll see that attitude: “The Jesus I believe in is a God of love, not
hate!” And I was just like this once,
ready to argue with true Christians that they were hypocrites and militant
hate-mongers, and money-hungry organizations filling the world with unproven myths
and propaganda. Is this where you are?
Then my eyes were opened.
When Dad passed away in 1994, Mom
withdrew, and I think, for a time, blamed God. My brother and his wife, who had become religious, seemed to
temporarily fall away from their faith a bit when God took both her mother and our dad. But like our brother before us, the rest of us eventually “got God.” Although I
believe I’m a rather deep thinker about Christian ideas, I think my sister is somewhat
more passionate than me in her overall faith, though some, particularly those
who did not welcome her passionate commitment, might use the term “overbearing”
rather than “passionate.” Still, it is
quite obvious that she is more active in her faith, and I am more passive,
and we’re actually supposed to be active.
However, in my defense, and knowing what I know about our personalities,
our differing levels of Christian involvement are merely extensions of those
personalities. And we’re all farther along in our Christian
walk than those who are easily swayed into giving up Christian morals by
deceivers and self-help gurus who mix Christian concepts into their
un-Christian world views. We all know better, my Mom and my siblings and I, for we know that Jesus did not come to love and accept everyone, but
required of us believers repentance, Christian morality, and Christ-like
ethics. I am sometimes appalled at how
easily the general population is swayed towards immoral ideas that go
thoroughly against what Jesus taught was righteous, and yet are easily
convinced they are actually Christian ideas accepted by God. Meanwhile, people like us, if we have
the courage to speak up and let our thoughts be known, are quickly labeled as
“intolerant haters,” and “religious freaks.”
You know, it’s almost as if people are hypnotized into following that
simple “Jesus-of-Love-for-everyone” doctrine, and have been programmed to
revolt when someone begins talking about Jesus and the bible as they really
are. Then they turn right around and
label these true Christians as the indoctrinated, hypnotized ones, the classic
case of the pot calling the kettle black.
"Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword." - Matthew 10:34
I guess I never realized that faith
in Christ could be so explosive, confrontational, and difficult, but it often
is. Jesus stated in the bible that His
coming would be like a sword dividing families, and that the door to heaven was
a small door. For this reason, I feel
like my concept of Jesus, as the One who will separate the “sheep” from the
“goats,” is the correct one. Those who
believe that Jesus accepts everyone into heaven just because He loves them have
forgotten these lessons he taught about the righteous and the unrighteous, or
they have ears but don’t hear, just like Jesus warned, so that they wind up
“exchanging the truth for a lie,” accepting the easy interpretation that will
allow them to continue living in sin, actually going against what Jesus taught,
and still believe that Jesus approves because, deep down, they are “good
people,” and that Jesus’ love alone will allow them access to the paradise of
the afterlife. Of course, everyone,
particularly those who don’t really understand or accept the Christian concept
of “original sin,” believes that they are “good,” so this reasoning basically
doesn’t really hold up. If we’re all
going to make it just because Jesus loves us, than why would there even have to
be a hell? What’s the point of choice if
we’re all going to heaven, no matter what we choose to do? If you think about it all, digging deeper
than just the surface concept, you’d find this interpretation of what
Jesus was all about is a lie, and many are being deceived into not only
believing this lie, but fighting against the truth and against those who don’t
believe in this lie. The really sad part
is that they don’t even realize that that is what they’re doing! Oprah and those like her are not deliberately
setting out to deceive the nation, but are doing it unknowingly. Even worse, they are doing it in the name of
love, peace, friendship, and even in the name of Jesus and Christian
morality. And somewhere in the depths of
hell, Satan is smiling.
As for my faith in Christ, at
some point in the middle of the 90's, I began accumulating evidence for
my belief that truly questions the validity of the evolutionary science I had
blindly put my confidence in before, and evidence that shed light on exactly
why scientists might try to present their theoretical assumptions as solid,
unquestionable facts (and succeeding for the most part), and why they might want
to refute any findings that strongly supports the theory of creation or Jesus’
divine nature and miraculous and glorious resurrection from death. These evidences are what I have spent much of my time pouring over in my monthly journal pages as I write about my walk with God.
It's funny, I moved the family out to Tennessee about nine years ago, and we haven't had regular contact since...except the occasional social networking exchanges and rare phone calls...and even rarer trips to visit one another. Couple that with the fact that although we've always been a close knit family, we didn't spent a great deal of time in our younger years discussing religious, political, and sociological matters, and in the years immediately preceding my (and my family's) departure, we didn't spend a lot of time together period. I find it interesting that despite our somewhat limited interactions regarding the aforementioned subjects, we share perceptions and ideals that are virtually identical. It's always gratifying, and even edifying, to read your posts. I don't always find (OK...make) the time to read your posts, but when I do, I'm nearly always blown away by your insightful analysis and straightforward delivery. I can only comment on how much I appreciate this specific blog, because I agree completely and can't think of much to say that would add significant value beyond that which you have already shared. I wish there was a way to get others to read your stuff without prejudging it...as musings from one of those close-minded, stick-up-their-booty Christians. Keep it up Gar. Even if not one other soul ever reads them...they have their own intrinsic value that doesn't depend on the approval of any other human being.
ReplyDeleteGreg Koukl from Stand to Reason just did an article about evolution. Pretty good resource. Do you have any recommended books or anything?
ReplyDeleteScott -
ReplyDeleteThank you SO much for the great things you said! You flatter me, and it does wonders for my ego and sense of self-worth. You make me wish we kept in touch more often. The funny thing about this post is that I wrote it TWELVE YEARS AGO (I post old, old journal entries mid-week and newer stuff on the weekend).
Hanny -
I will definitely have to check out that Greg Koukl article. As for the books I've read, there have been too many to mention, but here's a few:
"In the Beginning" by Walt Brown, a young earth proponent
"In Six Days: Why Fifty Scientists Choose to Believe in Creation" by John F. Ashton
"Beyond the Cosmos" by Hugh Ross, Ph.D.
"Refuting Evolution" I & II by Jonathan Sarfati, Ph.D.
"The Lie: Evolution" by Ken Ham
"The Face that Demonstrates the Farce of Evolution" by Hank Hanegraaff
The last five chapters of "Godless: The Church of Liberalism" by Ann Coulter
"Signature in the Cell: DNA and the Evidence for Intelligent Design" by Stephen C. Meyer
The film "Expelled: No Intelligence Allowed" from Ben Stein
And much of Dinesh D'Souza's work supports the idea of evolution as it pertains to changes within a species over time due to changes in the environment, a concept I also agree with, but vehemently denying evolution as it pertains to all life evolving by chance from a single cell forming millions of years ago in a primordial goo. I've written about all of them over the last twelve years, and I'll probably eventually get around to posting them all in here sometime. Suffice to say that I am a confirmed creationist! In fact, it is this argument that has seemed to drive my passion towards Christianity the most.